| Yaaay Im writing in my xanga again!!! |
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| It's been about a month since i've written so it's about time I get on it. I haven't even written on paper either. What happens if I go crazy and can't remember the events which occurred in this time period and in the midst lies the answers to my mental breakdown but never were they documented so I would never be cured? I should always be writing... A lot has happened in the past month. Well A lot happens every month but to me more so than usual. I've bleached my hair, I dyed it bright red underneath. I've been speaking spanish more to customers at work, which is very beneficial. I learned more songs on guitar. I was due for that a long time ago. My band played at Hot-Z-Pizza in Landisville on April 29th. It went surprisingly well. I've met many new interesting people therefore I'm learning more about myself. I am sad when I go to jams and see people there just to drink. If I didn't have music, I wonder what I'd be doing. Well I guess nothing too exciting has happened. I'm going to practice guitar. |
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| People are funny. Life is good. I just got a new job and a new band. Now I am busy and I am getting dizzy. yeah that's my song... what! Uhh. Yo what is wrong with me? |
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| I have so many internal pressures right now, I feel as if I must write about them. Well you know what, No I am not going to because I've talked to so many people about this that, It makes me feel better to hear what I want to be told rather than possibly what I think I am harboring deep deep down. I sometimes think I am not letting God be in control, but how do I really know unless I make drastic changes in certain areas? Anyway I talked to a girl in school today. I asked her if she thinks it's possible or right to marry someone who is not a christian. She said "My husband is not a christian" but she is in love with Jesus. I found that to be amazing and commended her for it. She said it's difficult because he doesn't understand why she's puts Jesus before him. It was just a really uplifting talk with her after Spanish class today as well as interesting an interesting one. She told me she has anxiety because sometimes she tries to control God, I feel the same way. Anway she told me a very interesting story about a guy who didn't believe in God.
A man went into a barber shop to get a haircut. He got into a conversation with his barber about God. The barber told him "I don't believe in God", the man asked him why and he replied "Look outside at all those homeless men there couldn't possibly be a God, there are murders and rapes everyday as well" The man finished up his hair cut, got his beard trimmed, said thank you to the barber and walked outside. He walked for awhile and had an idea. He turned around and brought a homeless man inside the shop with him and said to the barber "Look at this man, his hair is a mess his beard has never been trimmed, there's no such thing as a barber". The barber looked at him and said "How can you say that when I am right here?" The man said "Look at him, why does he look like this if there are barbers?" The barber said "Well, he never came to me".... Point Made
Alright I have so much to do now.
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| Don't ever expect that what you want, you will want once you get it.
I think I am being harrassed by the devil. |
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